14+ years ago I wrote a song. It was one of those, which was written in minutes. One where the words and music seemed to be written simultaneously, so much so, I honestly cannot tell you which came first.
“I want to freeze this moment
Open my eyes wide
Take it all in,
Absorb it
Feel it,
Breathe it in
This exchange of emotion
Overwhelms me.
Didn’t know I had it in me
Inside.
To feel so whole.
I’m transfixed,
Oblivious
To the rest of the world.
Just one moment
Just this once
Freeze frame,
Stop time,
Pause, absorb,
Prolong this feeling.
I want to keep it
For ever and ever,
Everlasting.”
I wrote this song not long after I met my now husband. Shortly afterwards he dumped me. Probably a bit freaked out by his new girlfriend declaring her undying love in the form of song. Not cool.
I went on to record this track with Grammy Award winning producer, Ron Magness, and it’s how I felt in the recording studio in Charlotte Place at 2am listening to the first mix when I thought I was going to be a pop star.
However, many songs later it remains my favourite, mainly because I keep coming back to those words, which now mean even more.
It’s how I felt as I walked down the aisle.
It’s how I felt when I first laid eyes on each of my newborn babies.
It’s that feeling at the top of a hill when the view takes your breath away.
It’s how I feel now when I watch my children doing something delightful, something funny, something so cute that I desperately want to hold onto it forever but know will be lost in time.
It’s that feeling deep in your stomach when the butterflies dance and you take a deep breath.
I got this feeling this weekend at the wedding of a dear friend as I watched her get married and my little girls were bridesmaids.
It was a day to remember. For all. Forever.
So, Emma & Ben. I dedicate this song to you
And just for a little while, anyone can download it
https://soundcloud.com/sarah-ffelan/freezeframe
(the intro is 1:48min – you have been warned!)